CATCH 22

 I'm disappointed of being disappointed. It is the catch-22 of a spiritual experience. Self hatred is a self fulfilling prophecy. Or more like a mirror room. You keep looking at yourself, never quite finding the out room. And constantly faced with the inconvenience of facing yourself, touching yourself to figure out the how to get out of it.



In the process, sometimes you fall in love, but most times you just leave it be. cover yourself in the garb of a crown and similar faces. They call that the way to enlightenment, letting go - of others, choices, likes and dislikes and ultimately yourself.


In the journey, you start hating everything because everything is an obstacle when your goal is the attainment of nothingness. You naturally start with looking at all the factors that you have, that you shouldn't have, that you must let go off. Hating yourself for having them in the first place, because if you didn't, how wonderful it'd have been to attain perpetual bliss.


And in this chaos of self-love to self-hate to eventually non-self, we all find bliss. Hopefully.

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